/// matching wrist warmers

/// cherry blossom boy

/// coral bracelet in place of you

coral bracelet in place of you.

/// forever in the archives

/// tradgarden love

epic!
jope!
joller!
que pasa tionina?
jag drickar sommar ol in real life version!
buhuhuhu! jag heter angel! jag kommer fran filippinerna!
you're always pushing me!
i would like to be your friend!
you will have love soon i can feel it!
smarties mcflurry!
buena gente!
bus ride!
mis padres!
vamos a casar!
bye boyfriend!

/// june soon

A: Jag saknar dig!
M: I miss having an angel around too.

/// ice cream eyes

/// spring

shout out louds in the morning, epic emails, a photoshoot and interview in the afternoon for ostermalmsnytt (sikat kahit saan!). skype with bff mardin before sleep (what's bff? hahaha!). the rollerbladers VS the skaters, angel and the devils: death angel, dirty harrysson and loverblade. telling them about patrick garcia and 500 days of summer and evil zoe deschanel's character. elves that will lure you in the water, high emotions and 49 kr pizza. a long walk from observatorielunden to slussen, learning how to swim, not knowing when you were eight, 18 degrees and craving for snapple peach iced tea, chairlift's bruises and aphex twin's fingerbib. "i saw you dancing, that's why you don't know how to swim!" :)

/// my father

i slept at s's at sickla allee last night (one of the most beautiful places on earth) and had a dream, this time about my father. he bought me an airplane ticket from manila to amsterdam, like always. he was so happy to buy it for me. i didn't know how to tell him that i couldn't stop by amsterdam anymore, and i didn't know how i could get to stockholm.

/// your father

i had a dream last night. it was the first time we saw each other again after we broke up. we were at the second floor of my old highschool building, i was so filled with joy. you were sitting against a wall in a highschool deskchair, i called your name and came to you, i held your head and your hair and kissed your cheek and just held you. you went away, always this hesitation present in the air when we are together with other people. my highschool classmates were so happy to see us together and were saying how good we looked together. (but we are not together, but what do they know.) you came back a little later with a group of rowdy boys, being your "hey look at me i'm so great" self.

there was a sofa and we were going to watch a movie on the projector. you cleared the space between us and said "hey don't sit too close!"

i was flabbergasted and told you that i didn't wait this long not to touch you.

then it became serious and you told me that your father is dying with cancer. all the injustices and hate and jealousy in my heart were suddenly drained and i just broke down and started crying because of sadness. you asked me if i could sing for him at his bedside, because that would be the only thing to cure him.

i will sing to your father in a heartbeat, the father you didn't want me to meet because you weren't sure if you loved me enough to introduce me to your parents. i will sing for him to save his life.