/// belgie

belgium. the buffer state. jealousy and jurassic park. never ending magritte skies. magritte said "i love subversive humor, freckles, knees, the long hair of women, the dreams of young children at liberty, a young gir running in the street. i wish for real love, the impossible, the utopian." dinosaur bones, the t-rex, triceratops and eight standing iguanodons. and iguanodons lying on the ground. 65,000,000 years ago, can you imagine how long ago that was? i couldn't. de ruijter breakfasts, thai lunches, fries on paper cones. small coca cola bottles. a gay restaurant with belgian flags: hello teenagers! there is no toilet, only a garden. attention! on va morir! bon-a! bon-a! pettit! young love - real, passionate and fierce. the pains of being pure at heart, over and over again. i could feel it. the train to brugge. the train to brussels.  plus est en vous. ninjtje and pusstje. finding love in food. wala kang dapat ikatakot. kaya ka nagkakaganyan kasi hindi mo matanggap: may plano ka na, pero nag-iba. e knoop doorhakken. 

and a long straight line in my head that says: you you you. it never stops, not for one second. you, in ice cream cups, splattered all across magritte skies, tucked in between conversations, always lingering just behind the person i am talking to. you, behind the lonely curtain as i fall asleep. "nothing worthwhile happened today."