/// always and forevermore

phoenix - rome (neighbours with devendra banhart remix)

always and forevermore i call to say i'm on the way 2000 years remained in the trash can let burn the cigarette somewhere ashes till it fall fall falls

the world is drowning. didn't you know that hope dies last? it is utmost cruelty to kill it. especially for someone who only runs entirely on hope. the thinnest line between being honest and being heartless.

people are dying. my city is underwater. at sobrang madaya ka.

/// right now.

/// 24-25

She’ll be gone soon, you can have me for yourself
She’ll be gone soon, you can have me for yourself
But do, just give me today
Or you will just scare me away

What we build is bigger than the sum of two
What we build is bigger than the sum of two
But somewhere I lost count of my own
But somehow I must find it alone

24 and blooming like the fields of May
25 and yearning for a ticket out
Dreams burn, but its ashes are gold
Dreams burn, but its ashes are gold

/// 24-25. Kings of Convenience.

/// i was not there

that infinite view, that infinite moment.




elves. grabe. :(






aaaaaaaaaah :(

/// why i am called julianlove

this is going to be phenomenal. this is going to heal all wounds. i love you too, i'm hanging on jules!

/// 1:11

/// fluorescent adolescent

/// magic happens

and then, you.

/// blackbird

/// movie night

/// a huge hole

/// ___

this doesn't make sense.
and i don't believe it.

/// could you run into, could you run into me?

Imagine running across a wheat field as fast as you can. Imagine your friend running towards you as fast as possible.
/// Yoko Ono

/// coco

/// there is a holiness to the heart's affections

/// !!!

EITHER MAGAWA MO TO
OR
GANITO KA NALANG PALAGI

/// hej baby

Kings of Convenience, Stockholm concert sold out right under my nose.
But I'm still going to see them... in LUND!

/// the wind and the sun

Once the Wind and the Sun came to have a quarrel. Either of them claimed to be a stronger. At last they agreed to have a trial of strength.

"Here comes a traveller. Let us see who can strip him of his cloak," said the Sun.

The Wind agreed and chose to have the first turn. He blew in the hardest possible way. As a result , the traveller wrapped his cloak even more tightly around him.

Then it was the turn of the Sun. At first he shone very gently. So, the traveller loosened his cloak from his neck.

The Sun went on shining brighter and brighter. The traveller felt hot. Before long he took off his cloak and put it in his bag.

/// the embassy

I listened to Belle and Sebastian's Act of the Apostle I while going to work today. It was my first day as an intern at the Embassy. The Diplomatic Corps. "Ohhh, if I could make sense of it all. I wish that I could sing, I'd stay in the melody. I would float along in my everlasting song." Out of nowhere, the most blessed view: walking from Slussen to Gamla Stan at 9:28 a.m. The sun reflecting on the lake, the boats quietly gliding by. People holding coffee and morning papers, gracefully rushing across the bridge, the water from the sea flowing through the lock (SLUSSEN) to the lake, gushing, running, moving.

I was suddenly aware of where I am, and what I've done. I'm in Sweden, I'm standing by my favorite view of the water and the sun, I'm on my way to the Embassy.  These were all past dreams, but I'm standing on top of them nonetheless, right? Angel, you are stronger than you think you are.

You can break through these emotions, you can go through it alone even if it hurts, you can find new dreams and you will be there and you will be happy. Will love find you even if you just stand still?  Chuck Bass stood outside his limo and said, "You are right."

/// angel-angel-1-2

can-you-can-you-hear-me? 

:)

///postcards from stockholm

/// i shine along underneath your view

Have me to you
I shine along underneath your view
I'll be the one
To let you know when you've come undone

/// k

sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba? sigurado ka ba?

naisip ko, ok narin yung ganito. hintayin nalang natin na sigurado na siya. kaysa yung half-loved diba? pati isipin nalang natin, training to. parang hinahanda natin yung sarili natin for that one great love. hinahanda natin yung sarili natin para sa isa't isa. napanood ko sa me you and everyone we know, "maybe i needed that. 70 years of life, to be able to be ready for a woman like her." pati sabi ni joseba, "the best things are always the hardest." mahal kita! papatibayin ko sarili ko para sayo! para pagdating ng araw na yun, handa na tayo.

ps
yung "hard" sa tagalog pareho! matibay at mahirap! ang galing!

/// oh if you find yourself for once a lonely one...

Only when the goal is unattainable
Do I start to feel like I'm losing myself
And this deep secret
that hasn't come out yet
is buried, down deep
with the rest

I can't coerce you into this one
Jealousy lay all your spells to bed
I'll choose long-loved instead

If only songs we're sung
To guide the doubtful ones
Beyond the rough
where not as much is good enough
Oh if you find yourself
for once a lonely one
I'll be waiting here with open arms

I can't coerce you into this one
Jealousy lay all your spells to bed
I'll choose long-loved instead

/// little joy - unattainable

/// investments

"that jerome! i invested in him! i gave him starbuck's pastries! i gave him a giordano t-shirt!"

-peter

hahaha! i love you peter!

/// next time around

everything, you, spain. <3

/// universitetet

To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour.

/// William Blake

/// mary garden

Mary Garden as Mélisande in Pelléas et Mélisande (Debussy). 

Opera, you and me. High ceilings, soaring violins and cellos, the solitary flute, the celesta, tears, your shoulder. I long for the day when we will see it together again.

/// my sailormate

you and me. i remember watching this over and over and dancing all over my room in bilbao while dressing up in the morning. "i wanted to control it!" then i would run to the bathroom and say good morning to my flatmates. "but love, i couldn't hold it!" then back to my bedroom. i was on my way to the library, and i knew i was going to see you again. :) the bus going to deusto, the walk towards the library, the stairs to the second floor, the rows and rows of white desks, and the familiar tuff of blond hair sticking out in the back row. :) oh love, i couldn't hold it.

/// telefonplan

whoever thought i would live in telefonplan? 

thorildsplan, a pizza place, broken social scene, tears. i suddenly felt what you must feel. and the loneliness.

and the love. of brushing teeth and silly faces and kiddie porn and neck ties and zara pants and eurocrats. 

it's a hard parade, just be courageous. 

/// the salmon will find the sea

close your eyes my child,

and dream

that perfect dream 

inside your head

/// the sweetest thing

i'm going on a date tonight 
to try to fall out of love with you 
i know, I know this is a crime 
but I don't know what else to do 

my love, you're in a magazine 
my love, you're doing fine, you're on TV 
you pull my heart out and then you run away 
from Chicago to Cleveland you leave me pain 
you leave me pain 

when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing 
i would trade my mother to hear you sing 
when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing 
i would trade my mother 

on the bus radio, "Fifty ways to leave your lover alone" 
i laughed at the irony 
but life is stupid, the irony all lost on me 
it got lost on me 

when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing 
i would trade my mother to hear you sing 
when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing 
i would trade my mother 

you challenged me to write a love song 
here it is, I think I got it wrong 
i focused on the negative 
the pain was too much to write and sing 
oh, it was not a nice incentive 

when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing 
i would trade my other to hear you sing 
when you're lucid you're the sweetest thing 
i would trade my other to hear you sing 

but she don't know just how far I'd go 
would I walk for a hundred miles 
for an instant northern smile?

/// let's play a game

b and i took a walk today. he was in vienna, i was in stockholm. 

we listened to:

open the door

 in my lady's house

homesick

arms

 lasso

and 

1901

a call to apathy

pulling our weight

breaker breaker 1-2