/// matching wrist warmers

/// cherry blossom boy

/// coral bracelet in place of you

coral bracelet in place of you.

/// forever in the archives

/// tradgarden love

epic!
jope!
joller!
que pasa tionina?
jag drickar sommar ol in real life version!
buhuhuhu! jag heter angel! jag kommer fran filippinerna!
you're always pushing me!
i would like to be your friend!
you will have love soon i can feel it!
smarties mcflurry!
buena gente!
bus ride!
mis padres!
vamos a casar!
bye boyfriend!

/// june soon

A: Jag saknar dig!
M: I miss having an angel around too.

/// ice cream eyes

/// spring

shout out louds in the morning, epic emails, a photoshoot and interview in the afternoon for ostermalmsnytt (sikat kahit saan!). skype with bff mardin before sleep (what's bff? hahaha!). the rollerbladers VS the skaters, angel and the devils: death angel, dirty harrysson and loverblade. telling them about patrick garcia and 500 days of summer and evil zoe deschanel's character. elves that will lure you in the water, high emotions and 49 kr pizza. a long walk from observatorielunden to slussen, learning how to swim, not knowing when you were eight, 18 degrees and craving for snapple peach iced tea, chairlift's bruises and aphex twin's fingerbib. "i saw you dancing, that's why you don't know how to swim!" :)

/// my father

i slept at s's at sickla allee last night (one of the most beautiful places on earth) and had a dream, this time about my father. he bought me an airplane ticket from manila to amsterdam, like always. he was so happy to buy it for me. i didn't know how to tell him that i couldn't stop by amsterdam anymore, and i didn't know how i could get to stockholm.

/// your father

i had a dream last night. it was the first time we saw each other again after we broke up. we were at the second floor of my old highschool building, i was so filled with joy. you were sitting against a wall in a highschool deskchair, i called your name and came to you, i held your head and your hair and kissed your cheek and just held you. you went away, always this hesitation present in the air when we are together with other people. my highschool classmates were so happy to see us together and were saying how good we looked together. (but we are not together, but what do they know.) you came back a little later with a group of rowdy boys, being your "hey look at me i'm so great" self.

there was a sofa and we were going to watch a movie on the projector. you cleared the space between us and said "hey don't sit too close!"

i was flabbergasted and told you that i didn't wait this long not to touch you.

then it became serious and you told me that your father is dying with cancer. all the injustices and hate and jealousy in my heart were suddenly drained and i just broke down and started crying because of sadness. you asked me if i could sing for him at his bedside, because that would be the only thing to cure him.

i will sing to your father in a heartbeat, the father you didn't want me to meet because you weren't sure if you loved me enough to introduce me to your parents. i will sing for him to save his life.

/// 02 my favorite movie

My favorite film and one that I won't get tired of watching over and over, because it captures the feeling and the atmosphere (and even the exact people!) of my life right now. Stockholm Saturday nights and Sunday mornings: subdued surreal colors, colorful friends, high drama, the feeling of both being a part of it and not being a part of it, floating. There isn't a big difference of how it was on film and how it was really like that one Saturday night in March. And Andy really is that (adorably) strange. Hehe

A tribute to epic days: the now and the yet to come! Forever young!

Stockholm Short Film Festival 2010's winning film, Lördag natt söndag morgon

/// 01 my favorite song

/// it's 20 seconds till the last call /// you're going hej hej hej hej hej hej! /// lie down you know it's easy /// like we did it all summer long /// i'll be anything you ask and more /// going hej hej hej hej hej hej /// it's not a miracle we needed /// no i wouldn't let you think so /// fold it fold it fold it fold it!

everytime i sing it, it feels like i'm cheering for myself! angel! angel! angel!

/// a cheat sheet

Day 01 → Your favourite song
Day 02 → Your favourite movie

Day 03 → Your favourite television programme

Day 04 → Your favourite book

Day 05 → Your favourite quote

Day 06 → Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 07 → A photo that makes you happy

Day 08 → A photo that makes you angry/sad

Day 09 → A photo you took

Day 10 → A photo of you taken over ten years ago

Day 11 → A photo of you taken recently

Day 12 → Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 13 → A fictional book

Day 14 → A non-fictional book

Day 15 → A fanfic

Day 16 → A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

Day 17 → An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

Day 18 → Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 19 → A talent of yours

Day 20 → A hobby of yours

Day 21 → A recipe

Day 22 → A website

Day 23 → A YouTube video

Day 24 → Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 25 → Your day, in great detail

Day 26 → Your week, in great detail

Day 27 → This month, in great detail

Day 28 → This year, in great detail

Day 29 → Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Day 30 → Whatever tickles your fancy

/// jamie sees the magic

"It's the perfect city... in the perfect country... but don't try to keep up with the Swedish in drinking because they are hardcore."

Jamie Oliver does Stockholm food.

/// Just Always Pray At Night

6:03pm Andreas
okay
well! enough smalltalk for today.. gotto get back to cleaning

6:04pm Me
thanks for the smalltalk!

6:04pm Andreas
np

6:04pm Me
ttyl

6:04pm Andreas
>>:)

6:04pm Me
tccic

6:04pm Andreas
yepp

6:04pm Me
>>>>>>:)
japan
italy

6:06pm Andreas
ok ttyl, just dont push it!

6:06pm Me
philippines!

6:06pm Andreas
not funny

/// in a matter of time it would slip from my mind

And again, words of wisdom from the unbeatable Blair Waldorf who had her heart smashed into a million pieces by Chuck Bas:

"I'm gonna kiss somebody someday, and when I do, it will be for me."

/// maximum undivided joy

/// I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand /// Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man /// These sensations barely interest me for another day /// I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, take the shock away. /// It's getting faster, moving faster now, it's getting out of hand. /// On the tenth floor, down the backstairs, into no man's land. /// Lights are flashing, cars are crashing, getting frequent now. /// I've got the spirit, lose the feeling, let it out somehow. /// What means to you, what means to me, and we will meet again. /// I'm watching you, I'm watching her, I'll take no pity from you friends. /// Who is right, who can tell and who gives a damn right now. /// Until the spirit new sensation takes hold, then you know. ///