/// tea party

It's so beautiful it breaks your heart. Suzy said as we sat listening to Rilkean Heart, at the end (the beginning) of a lovely summer night.

Of blue moons and blue lagoons.

Of the sunset view over Sodermalm, chicken and salad and frozen Coke, and fighting bears, ultra understanding powers, cooking and best friends and nothing has to change but ___!

Of jumping in the lake and learning how to swim and doing laps together and finding lost friends in the water.

Of hand games played in the middle of the room with Funny Little Frog playing in the background.

Of Cat/Wolf shirts and Somewhere trailers and tea party impersonations and sparkling Phoenix songs.

Of Cola Heart, BSS, The Video Dept. and Kendal Johansson wifting in the air. And cosmic Said Sadly...

Of whispering and shouting in your ear. Oh you break my heart, you silly boy.

Of plans, plans, plans of more sparkling summer days and nights like this. Of meadows and circus tents, car trips and camping and book clubs and movie nights (starring Leonardo di Caprio).

Of Alice and dreams that are real, of tea parties and friends all around you.

And the day was lovely too. I will be here when you come back, I promise.

Tonight, everything is beautiful it breaks your heart almost. But it doesn't. That is the beauty of it. This kind of love will never break your heart. It can only heal it, make it grow fonder and make you love it even more. And it will only keep on going.

Do you see, where is he? Where is that love? This love that you "believe" in? Where is this?What does he give you? Nothing. Nothing at all.

And do you see what is in front of you now? Do you see who knocks on your doorstep? Do you see that blue eyes, telling you to be careful? Do you see who comes to you and takes you in? Do you see this: candy in crystal jars, teacups and Rilkean hearts? They believe in you.

Forever and always, the now and yet to come. Here's to summer, here's to today, here's to the coming days and to love that is real, that is here, that will never break your heart.



05.07.2010 Rilkean Heart