/// weird state of mind

cheap monday!

it was a good morning. martin was playing some really good folk music and i was sitting in the kitchen, looking out the window with the snow falling. i was waiting for six o'clock, but it seemed like six o'clock was postponed again to an indefinite time. just give in! meet me, fall in love and get over it!

i met musse because i was going crazy. he met me one hour after i texted him. <3 on the subway, j was texting me about apartments in sodermalm and seeing me in SKWBN two weeks ago. i don't know how to read all this right now. it's on the counter!!! happiness in a bag.

sitting on our favorite corridor in stockholm university. state of mind, state of place. existentialist talk, are you here? are you real? being brave and courageous. the tunnelbana is like going to india. empty rooms and being at peace because: death and you cannot exist at the same time. drawing fake id's on my passport. deciding to go out because both of us are in weird state of minds, and not really in the mood to hole up in libraries and study. little brothers, broken bones. he bought me a coke. i said you're a special swede. he said i've just been meeting the wrong swedes it seems. it all evens out in the end, you see. i believe in that.

restless times call for... shopping. we love NK! his memories of childhood memories of candy bags and mother's shoes. looking for fjallravens. marimekkos. the soft sofa in urban outfitters' dressing room. you will love urban outfitters! first paychecks and coca cola on norrmalmstorg. gotgatan. 10 swedish designers necesare and a lux top from urban outfitters. do you like people? living in woods. being content with the people we know now. i don't feel the need to "discover the world and meet new people". i just want to stay here, and love my friends. in india you lose yourself. burger king.

you are in the place you've dreamed of, you are far away from home, you are far from your friends, your family, you are having all these love experiences... if i were you i would be in a hospital right now.

hur ru du du babs. it's now or never!